i miss you kathy :/
I do think about you. All the time
Why dont you love me the way i love you?….i try to be the guy you want but i keep messing up i become a completely idiot when it comes to you i cant seem to help it but i try….yet you dont believe anything i say…i tell you i will see you more and will show you a good time and will go for you and you just dont believe me…you dont think i try at all…. You constantly remind me of that….youve even told me that i am the problem in our relationship….i tell you things and you go straight to blaming me saying its my fault….ive suddenly become the reason everything goes wrong for us….you know how much i love you and you know how much what you think means to me yet you continue to remind me of all that….you know its very painful knowing that the one you love the one you vowed to make happy doesnt believe anything you say and believes that you are at fault for everything and the sourse of all the problem… Just makes me feel like i failed you over and over…and i guess i have…last night you sudennly out of nowhere said “your annoyed for no apparent reason” just sounded like i annoyed and you didnt want to tell me it was me….then i just went and lost it and made a mess of things….typical me right?….i love you more than anything in this world and would do anything for you i believe in you and trust you more than anyone…. I just wish you would believe me when i say that….you just think i love you but not enough to do anything for you….im sorry for being the way i am for always saying stupid things for never being there for messing up everything for ruining days of yours for everything im sorry….you know ill always be the one to go begging for forgiveness…. Which is kind of sad cause you wouldnt ever do the same for me…or maybe ive just been the one at fault this all this time
You know….i miss you alot….feels like the longer were apart the more likely someone is going to replace me….or youll find someone else who can actually be there all the time…someone might take my place the place that was meant for me ….the place i could never fill….ive let you down so many times….and now youve started to grow tired of me….i can see it…
…when i woke up i looked around i found a necklace i found my heart touched….stained by you forever…. It wasnt just a dream…you came true….but now you are gone… Leaving just faded memories of the dream….
Love I didn’t get to talk to you tonight ): …but that’s OK hopefully we talk tomorrow and I get to see you again….I really do miss you, you are my other half after all I wouldn’t be complete without you…I love you sooooo much I can’t stand it sometimes… Your the only person in this whole world who can make me feel this way, your the only one I love with all my heart I know it’s probably a bit too much to say things like this but I just can’t help it I have to tell you this or atleast put it somewhere where you can see it’s OK if you never read this…I my feeling for you will never change I will always be the guy you love and that loves you I will always protect you I will always be willing to give my life for you I just don’t want you to ever be hurt I need you to be OK… I tend to worry slot about you, you might notice cause I always ask what your up to and if your home safe or I just call to hear your voice…I know it’s stupid of me to do that I know your fine and that you can’t take care of yourself but I guess I’m just too worrisome about the most important person in my life…I’m trying to get better and not bug so much though cause I’m sure it’s a bit annoying…. Well I’ll stop cause I can say so much more to you like I usually do….just don’t ever forget or doubt that I love you cause I will always love you…this person I am is all yours
You are my light you guide me in the darkness when nothing but pain and sorrow surrounds me… Nothing else but you ever matters when I’m with you… Honestly your pretty much all I ever think about I can’t really go too long without thinking of you… Somehow without even being here with me as often as I would like you’ve become such a huge part of my life…idk what I would do without you…I would still be lost and hopeless without you…. Would of still been broken and hurt….would of still done things to myself…. You mean everything… I hope You don’t forget that…. I love you